Sometimes life becomes so confusing, you have no clue whom to listen to, whom to respect, whom to love, whom to dislike....who is bad, who is good!!!
Who are we to judge anyone?? But is it so simple not to judge...is it so simple to not voice out against something you dont feel positive about!!??
Respecting someone becomes an issue.....you feel like no one is good enough to be trusted....everyone is nothing but selfish...then why do you have to be so good all the time....why cant i break the rules of the society?? Shout out loud and speak the truth....speak the right things instead of the sweet things....instead of the lovely false words!!
Is it so hard to be yourself?? Is it so hard to be true? Is it so hard to be not nice at times and still not feel bad....but we do feel bad...dont we???
Why is it so tough to become careless though you crave to be.....why is so hard to not think so much...!!
It feels like no one really knows anything....we pretend to know or just believe something others tell us to believe in!!! I want to be free of all this....want to be a free spirit...not anyone else's...only mine....just mine.......I want to watch myself in the mirror and love myself all over again....pick the pieces of me......join them and make them shine....I want to know myself.....I dont want to prove myself...I want to be carefree....
I want to laugh alone....I want to cry alone...I want to think only about myself....I want to be selfish....I want to be left alone.....I wont be lonely i know!
But its so hard.....isnt it??
p.s. I know this post wont make sense to anyone maybe....but I needed to get this out of my system...so do bear with me! I am somehow not in a mood to write about my fun weekend right now...i promise I will be my chirpy self again...need some time...adios!
